i got drunk off our bad decisions
felt the high slip through my veins and rape my thoughts
i felt the room spin one last time before i finally closed my eyes
drowned myself in the tears we shared
let my hand fall open to the wind
and kissed our ashes to the breeze
like a tower i stood up against that wall and called you to swim in my waters
now those same seas are red with fear and tainted with shame
being inside of me is so much more complicated now
a part of you moves, climbs my walls, knocks on my organs
birth control is not control at all
since we claimed that 'control' we've lost everything
and the emptiness calls you to me once more
every void finds itself with you inside me once more
mind, body and now soul...
we walk in shadows of one another, your memory is etched on my veins
and love tries to bring us through but tsunamis plague our sandcastles
i'm not in love with you. but i am in love with what we've made
there in black and white - we made Love.
--tlloyd
