don't worry about a thing

the truth is, i don't like who i am all of the time but i'll be damned if i don't love myself.  


on another note, life is like the ocean. you have to keep swimming to get to the other side.  but real swimmers know sometimes you have to take a break and just float. stretch your arms out, point your feet and your lips to the sun and let the tide take you where it pleases.  i think i'm floating right now, at least emotionally.  
i'm tired of missing someone. 
i'm tired of pleasing someone.  
i'm tired of trying to find an answer that suits your ego and forgets the question.
i'm actually very tired of being tired.
and maybe this is just a phase, one of those bad weeks where my humanity has weakened my faith in the divine but this is what it is, not what it will be.


but i've been through worse, much worse and i've never quit anything or anyone.  i believe in grace beyond tribulation.  so i'm just gonna keep snacking on my favorite comfort foods, get my eyebrows done and tap into whatever strength i haven't used yet.