wishes and wants

i wish i knew what love was so i could wrap it in a gift and call it yours.  and i wish that i could bottle sunshine so you could drink it and glow from the inside.  i want to feel anything but vulnerable but people only recognize weakness in the shadow of strength.  i want to understand silence as if it's another language just to be closer to you and i want to practice celibacy because i know i would still feel you. and i want to go on vacation with you just to test out my theory that home is where the heart is so in essence, i never left.  i wish one night stands didn't turn into fairytales and i wish you didn't put my narrow feet in these glass slippers.  i wish distance would take itself to hell so it could feel what i feel when i'm in heat and i wish someone would have told me that stars don't just come out at night, they're your eyes.  sometimes i even want bad things to happen so that the good would have some company.  but most of all, i wish i knew what love was so i just wrap all of this in one sentence and say i love you.  but i'm pretty sure that love has nothing to do with my wishes or my wants but more so to do with what i already have.