Saturday, June 5, 2010

platonic sometimes takes effort

had a conversation with a fellow Leo and artist.
doing his thing, going for his dream. he'll probably be the next Denzel.
and i just want to be somewhere between Zora Neale Hurston, Nikki Giovanni and Terry McMillan.
so i guess it's never too early to write about him.


he has a tiny lisp. it wouldn't even be classified as a speech impediment. an untrained eye probably wouldn't notice it, but since i'm always searching for greatness, i notice all the things that are against us and make us great anyway, like a lisp - to an actor, who will be using that voice with that lisp for the rest of his life, more importantly his career.


usually, i would say that for actors, it's all in the eyes but i could not stop staring at his mouth and i mean that in the most non sexual manner ever, at least for today. his power is in his mouth and i'm not sure if it's what he is saying or how he is saying it. the mystery will work for him either way. 


his fearless attitude is attractive but i see in him the same things i fear.  his desire for art and his passion for work has created what seems like an inability to love, the same love that he will one day portray onscreen.  and i'm not saying he doesn't love someone or that he will never love someone BUT like me, love will come, he will never go searching for it. and if it doesn't come, actually it will come. it always comes. people are attracted to greatness and fooled by excellence.


for people as talented as him, the art will never leave you, never betray you and every morning you wake up, it will be right beside you. it won't make breakfast but it is consistent, it is loyal and love will never come with that guarantee.  and if we are blessed enough to find something as close to that guarantee as humanly possible, we will be too busy nurturing it to enjoy it.  Leos can only speak in the language of success and humanity is built on failures so he, like me will find himself in difficult positions.  his first love, art vs. his true love, her.  


in speaking with him, three things are apparent.
1. we could have been awesome friends and better lovers.
2. we left ninety percent of our conversation unspoken.
3. he's so hard to please and so hard to leave.



because i rarely say this, i must document it. i'm impressed and i'm sure we're both waiting for the world to catch up.

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