i'm in the mood

had some of the best food of my life with some of the best people in my life.
sipped wine, talked fidelity and laughed over sex in cars with boys.

i looked at the woman to my left and the woman to my right, noticing subtle differences that implied their growth.  here we were, years later from the moment we met crying and laughing about what our lives had in store for us.  there was a time when our priorities included shoes and classes, now we were talking marriage, children, relocating and shoes. [we're never gonna stop talking about shoes]  tiffany and i were dressed in all black with matching scarves. we didn't do it on purpose seeing as we got dressed in two separate places but after living together and being the left to each other's right, neither of us was surprised.  while we drove all over the city looking for the third part of the equation, it was only right we got a few jokes in.

'are you gonna make an illegal u turn?'
'no. i would not make an illegal u turn on such a big street like this.'
'you're lying! you're making it.'
'but you knew that though.'
'you're right.'

we caught up on the night before.
a happy hour that was ecstatic actually. happy birthday to @ms_she.
laughing and joking with beautiful women and handsome men who are still striving for the best in every endeavor, while remaining humble in the ones they've mastered.  as soon as i walked out my front door, i was happy to be in the company of someone supportive and yet inspiring.  as we walked  into the venue, it was all smiles.  someone got a little flirty with a slice of an orange and i apparently looked genuinely happy letting someone else make me happy.  but back to dinner and reminiscing about life, love and the orange. we've come to realize that we're growing up, making decisions dedicated to enhancing our lives.  we're dating without the drama.  like him or love him, there's no point in hiding it. but back to the happy hour.  looking around, it was clear - we were growing up. and though, i'm not going to pretend we're living fairytales, i think it's more impressive that we're facing reality with bright eyes and open arms instead.

but for now, i'm happy and i'm finally admitting that.