nursery rhymes

love shouldn't be like humpty dumpty. you know the rhyme? 


Humpty Dumpty sat on a wall,
Humpty Dumpty had a great fall;
All the King's horses and all the King's men,
Couldn't put Humpty together again.


as a woman, i know men will break you into pieces that will have you scrambling in dark rooms with ice cream and self pity.  
one minute you're on a pedestal and the next, you're a tombstone where a pedestal once stood. i get it. 
the fall is sometimes so hard, you can feel your heart crack into shards of a dust once reserved for death that belongs in urns in the dens of older ladies you left behind
sometimes we fall so hard that the entire kingdom shakes and even the rumbling hooves of wild horses can drown out the sound of a screeching, scorned woman.  
and you don't just scrape knees when you fall 
you bleed from behind your ribs, you find scrapes behind your ears, footsteps of the lies he walked into your soul
tracking his dirt onto the concrete you once called your self confidence
man. the fall can be brutal.
it can even be deadly as your dreams try to resurrect themselves from the purgatory of living without him.
and it's funny because the fall is so fast, you can't even catch yourself
you can't slow down, you can't deny the inevitable
your fingers try to fight against the friction without realizing that friction is a fight in and of itself.
as your hands try to grasp what your mind cannot possess, your shell shatters 
while you are boiling with a fire underneath you that makes your insides harden
the fall is hard
and though it's fast, it's a long way down and a longer way up
but unlike humpty dumpty, the king's men can put you back together
piece by piece until you are whole again, scarred by your tumble but whole nonetheless
heroes come to damsels but first we have to admit we've been hurt before
we have to admit we've been disappointed and let down in every way but gently
we have to admit that we are vulnerable and have our hand out before our heart
we have to understand that we understood nothing and the road to healing is one step after being wounded
but i believe that love is nothing like humpty dumpty
love will put you back together again


humpty dumpty sat on a wall
humpty dumpty had a great fall
all the king's horses and all the king's men 
wouldn't stop until they put humpty dumpty back together again


find a king that stops his entire kingdom to turn a shattered egg into a queen