rome and its ruins

and another thing.

someone said, "rome wasn't built in one day."
someone else said, "if you build it, they will come."

if that wasn't one of the most memorable quotes i've heard, i don't know what is.  if you go through the blog, it's rare that i quote other people. it's not because i don't like what other people say but it's even more rare that i'm impressed or moved by something, sometimes both. but this dialogue struck me. it stuck to me actually. and of course it put me in the mindset of relationships. i don't even know why relationships have been on my mind so much lately considering i'm in too many and in none all at the same time. but i wonder, if i build myself to possess all the traits that i would like in a partner, will that partner come?

he bleeds me like sandpaper to dust
carving soliloquies out of chambers only canaries could sing from
he masters my woodwork like only a carpenter can
i swear Jesus taught him
i carry him till we reach the crucifixion
nails dug into the palm of our open hands
still taking what is being given and giving what should never have been taken
we seep into the blades of grass
serving sweat as dew
and blood as water
fertilizing mankind with divinity and diluting the divine with men
i can see heaven in his eyes even though it's hell on earth
and he holds me close, telling me he will rise in three days
between the ruins and the rubble
he will rise and historians will never forget something they never witnessed
the memory of him is more comforting that his presence
and i am wrapped up in his sacrifice
loving a man that man cannot love in the same way
i fall in the wake of his rising
too tired to keep believing and to blind to understand seeing
he walks on the very water i drink
the bread and water has become the flesh and blood
that no one considers cannibalistic because one man's death is ok if it'll save the human race
his divinity is his strength but even Lord knows, it's my weakness.