day 18 challenge

this weekend was a little busy. i knew the answer to this challenge, i just wasn't in a space to post it.  so here goes. day 18 challenge: plans/dreams goals i have. i might as well make a list because it's not that i don't know what to do with myself, it's that i want to do too many things.

-write a few books. i put that in the atmosphere a long time ago. wish it didn't take so long but it's so time consuming and difficult to write about a life i'm still living. i tend to get stuck on whatever chapter i'm on.
-go to beauty school. i've always had a knack for female empowerment. blame it on having six sisters but whatever the reason, i really believe that when you look good, you feel good.  it's a beautiful thing when you can help someone feel great about themselves.  they have a new sense of confidence and once they believe that they can do anything, they usually end up doing something.
-i've been going back and forth about this since i had my daughter but i think i want a boy. i'm pretty sure i do, but i think the requirements for a father are so important that i won't be able to deal with falling short...again.
-have a grown up relationship. no games, no drama. no hesitation. no babies we can't take care of. no bad credit. i want a relationship with car notes, mortgages, soccer games, amusement parks, vacations, ok this is sounding like marriage but you get the point. i want a grown up relationship and if i do it right, i only want one. i don't know when or how but i have time to figure out those details later. [did you notice i forgot love?]
-i would like to open a recreation center for school aged children.  i had a lot to do growing up but i could have done more. now most kids have nothing to do and they're doing less.  i'm a firm believer that our children can take over the world but someone has to give them the resources first so i want to gather up all my resources and hand it over to the next generation.
-i want to get a handle on this forgiveness thing people keep talking about.  i don't know how to forgive. i simply forget.  i don't know where i was when they were teaching forgiveness in Sabbath school but i had to have missed it.
-i want to teach, either high school or at the university level. that should probably come after my first book but i think whatever class i teach would give students academic freedom which there's not enough of.  when i went to school, i always felt like i had to have an answer but all i really had was more questions. sometimes there is no wrong or right, sometimes, it's whatever you think.
-my life goal is to raise a decent human being. so far, so good. mini me is intelligent, witty, compassionate and pretty funny. now all i have to do is make her play a sport and pay her taxes.

i'm sure there's more but the last plan/dream/goal of mine is to keep some things to myself. end scene.