day 28 challenge

'language of the past' qualifies as my answer for day 27 challenge.  it wasn't until i read it that i realized it's the answer to 'why did i take the 30 day challenge.' that's good evidence that this challenge is doing what it's supposed to do.  at the end of it, i'll disclose exactly what that is.  but today is day 28. a picture of me last year and how have i changed since then.

this picture is about two weeks shy of a year ago but this is all i could find.  photo credit to @danigirlbx. she's the historian of my life apparently.  last year, you can tell i was a thick joint. i had a couple pounds on me. they say happy people eat and if i remember correctly, i was happy.  how have i changed? i'm not so happy. that doesn't mean i'm sad, just indifferent.  for starters, i lost some of that weight. there goes my chances of being ms. new booty. i'm not in a relationship and that's a HUGE change.  sometimes, i still can't believe we're not together. i'm not in undergrad anymore and that's a BIGGER change.  colossal events have taken place but as far as who i am, i haven't changed as much as the things/people around me have.  i'm still wearing rose colored glasses thinking each day will be better than the last. i'm still a mom to one the most eccentric children i've ever had the pleasure of meeting. i still eat pretzels and spaghetti like their going out of style.  who i am is who i've always been just with bigger hair.  

so today...a year later...

i've learned that being in a different place is not necessarily better or worse.  i've also learned that it's ok to be angry and then change your mind. i've gotten more comfortable with the things i've been through.  i've learned to edit, to go back and look at things more than once.  funny enough, i don't read my own blog, once i post it, i figure it's yours to keep.  now i'm learning that i can retouch a few things. haven't done it, but at least i'm willing now.  i'm in lust as someone eloquently told me.  though i haven't decided if that's true or not, i'm definitely in a place i haven't been in before.  i'm enjoying the little things, phone calls, text messages, trips - things that i always needed in the big picture, never leading up to it.  i've also been doing a better job with keeping in touch, not great yet but just a little bit better.  oh! and i'm learning how to budget. it's a painful experience but i'm pushing through it, slowly.  the most important change is that i write so MUCH more than i did this time last year.  though i was too busy living life to write about it then, now i'm so in love with writing that life is only enhanced by it, not limited.  all in all, i'm the same womam but this time different rules apply.